My Wish

My wish isn't to mean everything to everyone but something to someone

Hmmm. . . . .

My blog is turning into my Journal nowadays, maybe it's because I kinda stopped writing my diary for a reason I'm yet to find out. =) I should stop stalking my own blog! Anyway life's in full swing for my exams and it's not a bed of roses to be wrapped up in all these responsibilities. Growing up is scaring me, anyway it's not something we can avoid or anything.

New books on my shelf - Shiver & Linger by Maggie Stiefvater & Death by Denim by Linda Gerber (I bought it for only RM 5.50)

I'm planning to buy Queen of Babble by Meg Cabot for only RM. 20.00 from a friend. Going to stack them all up and get crawled up in them after my SPM.

My after SPM plans made me think of PLKN. I wasn't expecting it, but somehow I was chosen. First came the tears but then came the compliments. So, now I'm actually looking forward to it. How bad can it be. =)

Current addiction is Shania Twain! I always seem to end up with no reasons for things I do and like. And sometimes that's how I like my life to be - free from reasons. Yeah, like it's ever going to be like that. - Wishful thinking! =)

Smile =D

Tell me what to do about you

Mood: Confused :(

I'm stuck! Again. I have no idea what's happening and sometimes the truth is too much to take.
Is it true or something that you make up?. Again
God please show me the right road.

Listening to: World of chances - Demi Lovato

I got a paper and pen
I go to write a goodbye
and that's when I know
I've got a world of chances for you
Chances that you're burning through.

Why can't I hate too??

MOod: Calm, disturbed and at the same time Happy....

Listening to: I'm Grown - Tiffany Evans

I get hated for something I did wrong.. okay I understand but why am being hated for something I apologized?? I wanna hate you as much as you hate me. And believe me I will someday. And that someday might just be around the corner. Gonna start writing my short story - gonna pass it up to the teacher. wohooo!!!

I can't believe, you're tryna block me
Just to playing the games, I thought you'd be
Up in my league but no you can't compete
Back up don't touch gotta give me 50 feet
Cuz Imma on another level
Im bringing things to life like Im japetto
This is the last time that Im gonna tell you
Im doing it big now, you wanna piece let it go

- Love yourself no matter what -

What's the first word that comes into your head when I say

What's the first word that comes into your head when I say. . .

WIS: coffee??

WIS: hate??

WIS: push??

WIS: loud??

LOst!

Mood: Damn sad! :'( and crying!!!!

I lost all my Sports Day pictures!! - I blame this stupid computer for it. I saved it all and for some reason I can't find it. Just like all the pictures when I was in Form 1 and 2. All my chorus speaking pictures got lost. That's it. not gonna keep them in the computer. I'm going to wash them all and keep em in an album. The old fashion way. The best way is the Old way. ergh!!! My last Sports Day - and I'm here without nothing but memories saved in my head.

I'm really hoping, some how I can get them all bck. GOD!!! Where are you? please help your child!
HOw do I get over this. My friends are all going to be sad as they were all hoping on me for the pictures and videos as well.

ERGH! - GONNA BREAK SOME GLASS!

1 July 2011 - The Curse

So why you lookin' so nervous
You know you kind of deserve this
I ought to kill you right now
And do the whole wide world a service
Well my daddy's gonna straighten you out
Like a piece of wire, like a piece of wire

Mood: Tired Sleepy :P (Not at all in the mood to write a post about my Sports Day)
Listening to: White Liar - Miranda Lambert

I'm tired, weak and sick - so not in the mood to write about the Sports Day, so that's gotta wait. It was actually a nice day and I did enjoy it to the max. I was doing well till 12 in the afternoon, got pissed off a bit then got really confused for no reason. Now I'm doing well, my fevers down.

Tomorrow - "The Curse" -  theatre play. Can't wait. Hope I'm gonna love it cause I've always wanted to watch a stage drama. 40 pupils from my school will be atteding I guess, with our English Teacher.

Gotta hit the hay, it's going to be a great day tomorrow (hopefully!)
Good Night Dear Blog of mine. =)

29 June 2011 - Common Sense??

With the weight of those disappointments
Whispering in my ears

Mood: Calm =)
Listening to: You Lie - The Band Perry

What to do? What to do?
Common sense where are you?

If I start using that, I guess you won't be the one talking and taking charge. Well, I leave it to you for now - You'll know why soon.
How to do something, when I'm not sure if it's the right thing to do. Erghh! I'm all messed up.
Anyway, set that a side.Now to the main picture.

Sports Day - Tomorrow!! Can't wait! I'll be definitely posting most of what I do. So till tomorrow adios amigos!

Listening to: One Day You Will - Lady Antebellum

Cold As You

It's been a really hard week for me.

So I decided to have a break, and cleared all my stuffs in my computer.

If our lifes could be as easy as my computer deskstop, I would have cleared all the problem by now. But it isn't as easy as that.  

- Oh what a shame, what a raining ending given to a perfect day. So Just walk away, no use defending words that you would never say. Now  that I'm sitting here, thinking it through - I've never been anywhere as Cold As You -

19 June 2011 - Shame on you

Cont. Post - 5 June 2011.
I just kicked you to the crib with my red high heels
I'm about to show you just how missing me feels.
In my red high heels.

Mood: Pissed out But all doubts cleared.

There you go. It's like I don't know you anymore and that's the clear truth and now I know what you said is a clear fake. I'm not sure if it's the good thing to be posting names here. But I will if things get on my nerves, maybe posting would make me feel better - so let's just wait and see.

I found out everything. and I know more than you think I know - Surprised?? Don't be cause I told you before - I got friends in this town. I just want to point out - you're not well in lying as well. Ain't it a shame? now to know that you have acted so foolishly stupid. anyway past is past and I have future to chase and you won't be anywhere near it - so that's it leave me alone, you white liar.

You have a very weak heart but I'm Not like that - I have a strong heart and you're gonna know that when you hear me giving a piece of my mind to you.

Messing around is it?? I have been told that a Liar is always a Liar, so I've got my pride. You haven't seen the worst of me yet. . .

I can't believe how you can betray a friend??? Shame on you for hurting me knowingly. Shame on you for acting and pretending. Shame on you!

I'll be posting more and the next time I see you, You're getting what you deserve.

P.S: It's not over yet! I'm gonna come at you fast, you better be prepared.

Teacher's Day - 16 May 2011

Hadn't had the time to actually sit and write for a long time. So that's how I ended up posting this now.

Teacher's Day Celebrations!!!
The day started with running late, as usual. But when I arrived at school, it wasn't late after all.

Me and my friend Zurain Indan.

 The hall was decorated beautifully, and there were flowers everywhere, all the teacher's were dressed for their big day and everything was set. There weren't much students who attended but that was just the good part of it, cause as for prefects; we had less to worry about.

 The teacher's followed me and my friend Zurain as they were brought down from the staff room to the event hall.  We took our spots, as the prefect in-charge of the photography took over. It was time for the " CatWalk ". One by one teacher's came down the stairs and did their thing. All of them shined like a star. They all looked stunning indeed. 

  



Teacher Tong

 

Teacher Saras

 

Teacher Aisha

Teacher Sukri

Then as usual, Our headmaster gave his speech, followed by the Head Prefect. Performances by students, crowning of the most popular male teacher and female teacher and other rewards were given to teachers, cake cutting ceremony - were some of the events.

        

Then everyone's favourite - Games!
Music Chairs, Tie the Saree on The Teacher (This isn't actually the name of the game. I just invented it a minute ago.=D) , and many more.

Music Chairs - Both teachers and students participated.

Tie the Saree on The Teacher - as I like to call it!  

In a nutshell, everything went well, but I couldn't stop thinking that this was the last year of school, and the last time I can be a part of this whole event. All the prefects had their part to do and everyone helped in and I did my part and I was happy for that. For my friends; we had fun too.This was our last year celebrating Teacher's Day together anyway.

 

That's all for the day, I guess.
It's never too late to show some love, so to all the teachers -  
Happy Teacher's Day! and my heartfelt Thank You to all the Teachers!

Bored Olives - An e-mail love story

As I was going through . . . . well, I forgot actually what I was going through when I found this blog, but - I found it. The blog, well it's about a 1999 love story between two people namely; Dom and Stacey. I haven't started reading it because I don't have much time, so I became a follower and maybe will be reading soon. I really hope it's going to be fun because this is what the creator of the blog wrote;-

To my delight I discovered a correspondence between two people dating back to 1999. They were truthful, touching and a little funny. I became addicted and felt compelled to share it. Unedited. I hope you enjoy Dom and Stacey as much as I did.

Bored Olives - An e-mail love story

Mood; Better than yesterday! :)

5 June 2011 - Hey White Liar

Hey White Liar;
Truth comes out a little out of time
And It spreads like a fire

Mood; Pissed out!!!

How can people lie straight into someone's face without even a little bit of guilt in them. Don't you feel sympathy when someone says sorry for everything they have done. Didn't you're momma teach you that a fault confessed is half-redressed. Anyway, if what I heard today is true - I'll be gone for good. Don't tell me You've not warned; cause I just did.

I thought everything was wrapping up fine, and I was preparing myself for it - but now it turns out that I'm more scared than ever. Giving another chance?? Well, I don't think it's the right thing to do.

I just hope I can find a door that leads me out of all of this. Lying ain't a crime - but it leaves marks that can never be washed away. So, try not to lie and be prepared to be lied to - is what my mind keeps thinking of.

Why does this have to be this hard?? I have merely no idea. Anyway - I'm all mad and worried at the same time. So Hey White Liar - I'm gonna catch you red handed - and then we'll see who's the boss of it!


P.S You better be careful what you say, it never really added up anyway. But I got friends in this town.

1 June 2011

It's not just a promise, but a vow . . . .

Book Review; P.S. I L Y

I usually don't sit and write reviews for books that i read, but I wanted to give it a try. P.S. I Love You :-

It was a nice book by Cecelia Ahern, The daughter of Irish Prime Minister but wasn't a great one. When I heard about it I thought it would be a book I would want to read again and again but to my disappointment it wasn't one of those books after all.

I usually get a sense of satisfaction when I finish a book, that I completed it, and excitement to move on to the next. Well I was just glad it was over. I had high hopes for this book because the first chunk of it brought me to tears. And I don't cry, so this was pretty significant. But as I went on with the chapters, the tears dried and so did the reading. The story just seemed boring in the middle. I only got my spirit back as the story was wrapping up to an end.

I don't lie, so I did love the ending. At first I thought Daniel is going to be given a chance by Holly, but was glad to know it didn't work out and how Gerry's last order was still on hold even at the end of the story, that part was kind of interesting. It was also nice to know Holly is trying her best at her late husband's order even though she knows she might never be able to love like that again.

In a nutshell, the only thing that had me flipping those pages of the book even though I found it a bit boring was because of the Letter's from Gerry. Even I couldn't wait to read what he had in store for her every month.

"On the other hand, she was a women with a million happy memories, who knew what it was like to experience true love and who was ready to experience more life, more love and make new memories. Whether it happened in ten months or ten years, Holly would obey Gerry's final message. Whatever lay ahead, she knew she would open her heart and follow where it led.
In the meantime, she would just live."

- 27 March 2011-

It's creepy... how the feeling creeps inside of you and finally breaks you down to pieces. I did have a great time with my friends today, but I missed some of my close friends greatly. If life could only be as easy as unwrapping a candy with a surprising center everyday. There might be something different, maybe today it's strawberry and tomorrow I might just surprise myself with mint.

People

Why do people always drive 10 mph slower than the posted speed when you're in a hurry?

Why do the slower drivers always drive in the "fast lane?"
 
Why don't people smile anymore? Your life is what you decide to make it. We all have bad days but it's a matter of seeing the glass as half full rather than half empty.

a little something. . . .

Now all I do is

Lay there on my bed,
crying over everything that I misread
I tried, but I couldn't get you out my head
and everything that you said

I can't go on living like nothings wrong
I keep hoping you'd come before long
and realise where you belong

and everynight before I fall asleep
I sit and write in my diary
a couple of sorry


Copyright © 2011 i heart ?

All Work and No Play makes Jack a dull boy

2nd Exam!!

Wohoo!! got 8 A's!!! gotta work hard and keep my grades up. First exam was quite good but I did much better this time. Wasn't actually happy with my History though. I did well in Section B and essay, but for some reason I don't know why, I didn't do well on the objective questions.

English, Mathematics, Science, Perdagangan - A

BM, Accounts, Geografi, Pend. Moral - A-

History - B+

Anyway, my Mid-term exams starts on the 3rd of May and will be going on for a whole month. Have to spend more time studying. Good Luck for all those sitting for exam next month and definitly Good Luck for myself =D

Where Rainbows End

Rm 4.00

I Must Be One Lucky Girl!!

I keep getting books, since last year!

Did the shooting star fall when I wished for books ?

Anyway, last week after I bought a bunch of books from Popular; here I am again blogging about a new book I have added to my shelf.

A classic by Siegfried Sassoon, titled Memoirs of a Fox-Hunting Man

My sister's teacher was moving so she selled her daughter's old books and this is what my sister bought for me and for just RM 4.00.

Friends!

Gonna miss them all  ='(

Teacher's Day 2010

 

Book, Book, & more Books

Last week: "Popular Book Fair" was in between best and worst. I couldn't find much books that I wanted, but I did find some intersting books.

The books were on discount; starting from 20 percent to 90 percent! & being a member doubled the fun cause I got most of the books with 90 percent discount.

I couldn't get much time, so picked out whatever we came across and thought was interesting. We were running out of time, so me and my sister, well we could only find some.

The place had all kind of books;

My dad bought an Atlas.

My mom bought two cooking books; one was dishes made from toufu and the other was Betty Saw (one of my mother's favourites) 's book of Cookies. It was 40 ringgit, but she got it for just 12 ringgit.

My brother bought a horror book, which had a bulb at the top of the book which light up whenever you open the book; pretty cool huh!

The new additions to my shelf;



• 2 CSI Series Books.
• Playing with the Grown-ups by Sophie Dahl
• The Cupid Effect by Dorothy Koomson
• The Alchemist by Paulo Coelho
• Thirty Years in a Turtleneck Sweater by Nick Warren

Can't wait to read 'em all!

A Typical Saturday

A typical Saturday after a whole week of school, tuition, and studying ....

 Started by watching Puss In The Boots for a few minutes. He was sitting comfortably on my dad's motorbike and was enjoying the silence in the air. 

Cleaned up the mess that was taking over my room. I hardly saw the floor; just kidding!.

Called & text ed a bunch of friends, did some poor tricks with my hair bands, and went through my Form 4 novel all over again.

Played a good game of "Risk" with my sister & brother. Conquered most of the territories. Wohoo!!

Took out the big yellow book from my dad's mini-shelf. Went through it a couple of times, cause didn't know what else was better to do.

Surfed the Internet and wrote some chapters and cursed the computer a million times for being dead slow. But now the problems solved.

Went to the park and watched the waters flow.

Ate some home made chocolate cake. Yummy!! p.s: My mom fell in love with the oven again.

Not so interesting after all. . .

Airhead

As I was heading to my next class, which was Pend.Moral with a bunch of my friends, I bumbed into Ming Lee, one of my Chinese friend who happens to be a Library Prefect. She keeps me updated with the Library news. As I must say, the news she broke was awesome, and the first good one, I've heard since March started. Writing this, I can't believe February's finally over! Time is definitely flying.

Anyway, by the time we reached the class room, I was jumping up and down in joy because she had told me that the book I ordered had arrived. Just a month ago, I took some time to fill up the form for the Scholastic Book Orders, which is done through school. I chose "Airhead" By Meg Cabot as my order.



I was overjoyed when I got hold of the book. Couldn't believe my eyes. I unwrapped it just in front of the Library counter, all eyes were on me. & Now I Can't wait to flip through those pages and uncover the story.

I knew; My mom might not be happy with me buying another new novel. She didn't like the fact that whenever I buy a new book and started reading it, I would be all wrapped up in it and forget the rest of the world. But that's the way I liked it.

Anyway, for now I just kept the book on my shelf cause I'm currently reading P.S I Love You. I will be finishing it soon and might move on to "Airhead" soon. Can't wait!

Airhead here I come!!!

Just Wondering . . .

1. What is so fragile that when you say its name you break it??


2. Imagine you were in the middle of the ocean surrounded by sharks... How will you escape??


3. What was Beethoven's favorite fruit??

March Holidays!

March Holidays! BTW, I'll be spending my school holidays in school. Now doesn't that sound exciting enough. hm... anyway this is the last year of school, so I might as well, treasure every moment I am at school.

Now for the hot news!
Tsunami in Japan!
10m high!
God Bless the Souls!

Exams

Exams was a piece of cake, then how come I didn't get all As!

English = A

 BM, Mathematics, History, Geography  = A-

 Perdagangan, Pend. Moral = B+

Science, Accounts = B

I couldn't believe I got a B for my Science and Accounts paper, Science, well the paper was a bit tough. But Accounts, I usually get A! I gotta fight some more, to do better the next time. Until next time, Good Luck to me. =D

Valentine's Day

How many times have you sat around thinking that you wish someone loved you, or you wish your phone would ring, or you wish you had more friends, or you wish you didn't feel lonely? Everyone has days when their feelings of loneliness are over-whelming, and for some reason those are usually the days that the phone doesn't ring.

However, if you like the most of us, there are just as many times when love is coming towards you and you push it away. Either you are invited out by friends but you're not in the mood, so you turn down the offer, or you think you're too busy to give your grandmother who calls you everytime, a visit. Sometimes it seems hard to let others love you.

Love doesn't always come dressed in the package we want. It doesn't arrive on our schedule and it doesn't follow our guidlines and rules. It is love. It is intangible, unpredictable and certainly uncontrollable. This is what can make it painful, I guess. But this is also what makes it so wonderful, right? We need to be grateful and honoured by it's presence in our lives.

Be careful not to make rules where love is concerned. Be careful to not let it pass you by just because it doesn't present itself the way you think it should.

When a friend or loved one offers support or pays you a compliment, allow yourself to be receptive. When you are hurting and in need of nurturing, let others love you. when you feel unconfortable being on the receiving side of love, try to remember; the more love you are able to receive, the more love you have to give to others and to yourself. Open your heart and let it in.

The day for lovers ?? Well, I don't think so because I and my friends, we exchanged wishes and to some of our teachers as well. We didn't do anything special, maybe because we were very busy with school the whole day. But we know we care for eachother.

When I look into your eyes, I can see the spark,
when will the stars light up what was dark,
when will we two kiss, and dance across the rainbow,
as we both stand and say our vow,
when will all the world saturate into sweet,
making us both feel complete,


Like the feeling of summer,
in the middle of a winter night,
like a hard candy with a suprising center,


When will we redefine the meaning of love?

Nothing Special; Just Happy Valentine Day!
Good Luck People! =D

Chinese New Year Holidays

The one week holiday was just too much for me after two months of holidays last year. Anyway, had quite some fun and tried very hard to use my time as much as I can for studying. I did enjoy studying. The second day of Chinese New Year, I had lots of fun with my mother's Astrology Class friends and some family friends. We had like a small picnic at a park.

The evening sky was clear, as I walked on the green grass. I flashbacked to the time when I used to play with the swing and how I loved playing it when I was a kid. I didn't think of anything, so I just grabbed the chain and had fun. It has been very long.

Then we all played basketball and I did SHOOT! I couldn't believe it, but I did it. It was fun and for a while I did forget about other things, like homeworks! Then we ate deliouses food. The whole day was nice and I was very tired the end of day. Can't wait for another day like this.


Dogiee celebrating Chinese New Year!



Gong Xi Fa Cai!

I wish to all my Chinese friends and the non-Chinese ones as well because we are Orang Malaysia! Let's hope for the 1Malaysia spirit to kick off this Chinese New Year!

 

Once I remember, I along with my classmates we went to a Chinese friend's house, her name was Leow Meng Choo. It's been quite some time since I've seen her. Anyway that day, we went to her house and her mother served us some food and drink, I couldn't eat much of it as I am a vegetarian. so I warmly received the drink. After which we all gathered with her cousins and played games, I couldn't undersand most of the words coming out of their mouths but they received us very well, and we had a fun filled day.

We even played with lantern that night, My mom bought me a lantern shapped of a fish and for my sister, I think it was a snake, I'm not quite sure, I forgot a lot because it was so long ago. My dad bought a lot of oranges and even our neighbours handed us boxes of oranges.

Before leaving, Meng Choo took us to meet her grandmother, who was on her wheelchair, we greeted her and she handed us each Ang pows! each containing, I forgot the sum. Well, the thought that counts! right!

The whole day was so nice, it was nice to actually celebrate a festival, which was not even in your tradision, yet feel the overwhelming urge to celebrate it!

I hope Chinese New Year is a day, you all have fun as well, Let's face it, Chinese New Year is the time of  year you get to eat as much of oranges as you desire and get the chance to increase your savings.

Hope this Chinese New Year brings you lot's of shining lucks, wealth in abundance, never -ending happiness, and plenty of smiles to last forever!

GONG XI FA CAI!

Thaipusam

Thaipusam this year, was totally different for me than any years before. I , along with my sister went to the temple with one of my classmate, Rani who happens to be one of my best friends as well and her family. Few of my friends were carrying the milk offering, and I saw different kinds of Kavadi, and also the dance they do while carrying the Kavadis. I hung around my friends, all were dressed very beautifully! and spend the day roaming inside and outside the temple watching everything that the priests and people doing. After some while my friend's mother left us by ourselves. We countinued watching all the offering being brought from another temple and left the place at around 2 o'clock and walked all the way to where the bus would stop and took the bus home. It was a nice experince, and having it experienced with my sister and my friends was just awesome.

17 and young

5 January - My 17th Birthday! Can't believe I'm 17, Wow! life must be going on a rollercoaster. Anyway, the whole day was a blue sky to me, all my friends wished me, usually the guys would forgot, but this year it was different! Love you all! My mom didn't make cake as she usually does, but it's okay it just means I'll get the cake another day. I got a message from my aunt whose in India, and it read;

" Dear moon, this message comes to wish you a very happy birthday.may all good luck be on your path. "

I had some great time with friends and family. Thank God for giving me everything He has given me for the past seveteen years.

iHeart?

How come every school year starts and ends the same ? It starts with everyone coming on the first day, trying to have others forget who they were last year. And at the end of it all, you end up being another person, you want to change ? You start the year claiming it will be drama free, you'll make honor roll and no one will see you cry. In reality there's a new problem everyday, you get a few C's and your GPA drops to 2.5 and when things really get hard, you end up breaking down in the hallway. How come we all try so hard to impress one another when we are more concerned with how we look, and we're too insecure to notice ? Doesn't anyone think everyone else is too busy to look at him or her because they are constanly pulling out their compacts looking at their thick eyeliner ?

2011-

2011 - New Year's Day was as normal. In my family we don't go Yahoo!! over new years. It has been like this for years, if I'm not mistaken.

I don't know about the others but this year is the last year of my schooling years and also a very important year for me. I have SPM! It's like now or never, whatever I do this year is what I'm going to bring with me even after I leave school. So better put my best foot forward. =D

Goodbye 2010 & Hello 2011!