My Confessions

I'm So Sorry!

Last Year;

I’m sorry that you love me, because I don’t love you back. I’m sorry that you find passion in me, and I don’t find it in you. I’m sorry that I’m all you think about, and I never think about you. But most of all, I’m sorry that you ever thought that I loved you.

Because I didn’t

But . . .

This Year;

I'm sorry about never trusting you, I'm sorry for always hurting your feelings, I'm sorry I can't be who u want me to be, I'm sorry I can't be perfect, I'm sorry for our past experiences, I'm sorry for breaking your heart into two, What I'm trying to get through is that, I'm sorry I cant be good enough to to realise then that you were right.

And . . .

Now;

I'm sorry I said that, I'm sorry I asked

I'm sorry you never listened, I'm sorry you hate me now

I'm sorry I am annoying and crazy

but most of all I am sorry I still love you!!!!!

How do I make someone understand that I truly am sorry?Words will not be able to ever express how sorry I am for this, and I have profound regret and sorrow for the multitude of mistakes and harm I have caused.

I wrote my version of "You're Not Sorry". I wrote in the perspective of the one saying sorry and asking for forgiveness. here goes nothing;

All this time, you thought
you were wasting, hoping
I would come around

You have been giving out chances
every time, all I did was let you down

And it has taken me this long,
baby but I figured you out
And I keep thinking, we'd be fine again
but there's too much pain

I don't even call anymore,
cause you won't pick up the phone,
this is the last straw,
I won't hurt you anymore.

And I'll keep telling you
I'm sorry,
even if you don't believe me,
Like you did before
I'm so sorry.

You say I'm looking so innocent
You might believe me if you didn't know
I know you could have loved me all your life,
If I hadn't let you waiting in the cold.

And I've got your share of secrets
And I'm tired of being last to know
And now I'm asking you to listen
to get things back to the way it was before

I don't even call anymore,
cause you won't pick up the phone,
this is the last straw,
I won't hurt you anymore.

And I'll keep telling you
I'm sorry,
even if you don't believe me,
Like you did before
I'm so sorry

If I had fallen you for that day,

you'd never would have gone away,

We used to shine so bright
but i watched all of it fade,

I don't even call anymore,
cause you won't pick up the phone,
And I don't believe, when you say

there's nothing left to beg for.

I'm so sorry.

Its a great thing to be proud. You should be. You should hold your pretty head high and keep those dazzling eyes of yours forward. But not so much that you can’t hang your head low and say your sorry with a tear in your eye when you should

And

Forgiving is Love's toughest work, and Love's biggest risk. If you twist it into something it was never meant to be, it can make you a doormat or an insufferable manipulator. Forgiving seems almost unnatural. Our sense of fairness tells us people should pay for the wrong they do. But forgiveness is Love's power to break nature's rule.